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    From Hawke@VERT/LIVEWIRE to MRPROPER on Wed Jan 11 09:04:00 2017

    On Jan 10, 2017 04:59am, MRPROPER wrote to MRO:

    I am a drug addict, but have been clean for close to 6 years, but I NEVER stole, or scammed to support my habit. or any of the other nasty things your feeble little mind can probably dream up. Maybe I twitted you too soon, because this is a bunch of BS lies and I would have loved to
    defend myself.

    I have worked in Drug programs to help people recover... and 6 years is something that should be celebrated... so should 6 days. What many people don't understand is when you have an addiction, each and every day is a victory, and it is something to be celebrated.


    AS I STATED, I NEVER asked anyone for ANY help, I just stated my RLOGIN server would be down until I could get replacement parts because it was taken out in a storm, and he offered to send parts, and the dipshit sent about a half a ton of CRAP I could'nt even use, he spent like 50 bucks
    to ship his garbage to me. I guess it was a nice gesture on his part,
    but he could have at least asked what the hell I needed. or just sent
    the 50 bucks and I would have purchased myself if he was THAT needy for
    my RLOGIN server, he did this for HIS benefit, as well as probably 25 others because I ran a very popular rlogin game server for LINUX BBS systems (and any others) to connect to and had some very good games
    going. so whatever bullshit was fed to you (if you did'nt make it up yourself) was a lie. Now i've untwitted you from my system, andI expect
    you to act civilized and quit rubbing my name in the dirt for no reason, I've done nothing to harm you or anyone else. so get over whatever is giving you these mood swings.. Andopause? and I will be just as
    civilized with you.. Here's to new beginnings..

    Why do you feel the need to defend yourself? Those who know you know the truth... those that choose to live in delision can live in delusion.
    Ultimately the only person you need to "sell" this to is yourself and i don't think someone who has battled addiction for more than 786,210 days needs to go there... just focu on day 786,211 and then 786,212.

    Hang in there Tim... hang in there!

    Allen

    //<\\ Hawke

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  • From KK4QBN@VERT/KK4QBN to Hawke on Thu Jan 12 01:41:25 2017
    Re: Perspective
    By: Hawke to MRPROPER on Wed Jan 11 2017 09:04 am

    I am a drug addict, but have been clean for close to 6 years, but I
    NEVER stole, or scammed to support my habit. or any of the other
    I have worked in Drug programs to help people recover... and 6 years is something that should be celebrated... so should 6 days. What many people don't understand is when you have an addiction, each and every day is a victory, and it is something to be celebrated.

    Yes, it is, and I do, and try my best to help others too, even at the risk of relapse, but I have overcome everytime.

    AS I STATED, I NEVER asked anyone for ANY help, I just stated my
    RLOGIN server would be down until I could get replacement parts

    Why do you feel the need to defend yourself? Those who know you know the truth... those that choose to live in delision can live in delusion. Ultimately the only person you need to "sell" this to is yourself and i don't think someone who has battled addiction for more than 786,210 days needs to go there... just focu on day 786,211 and then 786,212.

    On here, I feel I needed to defend myself, Because I only know one or two people in "BBSland" personally. the only other image of me is cast in bits and bytes on forums that will never disapper, they will forever be cached somewhere on a server haunting me, They say leave the past where it is. But learn from it. It's hard to do that when someone calls you a theiving drug addict. I don't care to joke with people and play games. but to call one a theif and then pretty much take 6 hard years I have worked and accomplished so much in and just crush it into the ground and rub it in with your boot and spit on it crosses the line.

    I do my best to be friendly with everyone, I've even taken the person who did this out of my twitlist in hopes we can find some common ground, and just get along. I mean thats what civilized humans are supposed to do I presume.. Forgive and forget..

    Its something I've just worked very hard at to clear my name, I AM an addict and always will be when it comes to opiates, I have'nt been active for 6 years. I was busted on April 1st 2009 (april fools day) purchasing 2 percocet from someone who set me up. The Cop that arrested me that day, SAVED MY LIFE. I had gotten to the point where I was using needles when I could find meds to use them with. I decided to use first offender and take a Drug Court Program, which was hard as hell, but saved my life. The guy that set me up? Wrapped his truck around a telephone pole and decapited himself. after completing my duties to the state and local judicial district I called my Probation officer 6 months early before my release and asked to be released from probation because I wanted my rights back, I drive a Cab, its a dangerous job and I needed to be able to carry a Gun again. In a heartbeat, she cleared my name, I can pass any background check now, but when potential employers search my name on google, or Ham Radio operators search my callsign, they find these cached messages that say I am a theif and a drug addict.. No, I should'nt have to defend myself like this. But because someone who's mouth is bigger than their brain wants to go around spreading blatant lies, I have to.

    I had already found out that I did'nt receive a Job while I was still on probation because the District Manager of the company was too stupid to know the difference of whether one is Convicted of a Felony, or Charged with a Felony.

    It's all good though, Life is better now because the crap I put myself through. But I'm not going to let someone take me down, I'm good enough at that myself.

    Have a great Day

    Tim,
    AKA: MrProper, Ordain, KK4QBN

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